DEVOTION

I NEED MY POWER BACK

We live in a generation where greatest battle is in our minds. Think of a time when you were your happiest, peaceful, content not worried about tomorrow but living in the moment, for many people such as myself, I go back to my childhood, I believed I had superpowers and I was a child of the stars, fearless and my imagination could take me places far beyond the universe. I remember as child I would see myself changing the world.

Then like the saying goes “life happened”. I experienced sadness, loss, rejection, being called ugly, being to fat for my age, assault, I experienced going to bed with tears and feeling powerless. That young girl that believed she could take over the world was slowly being silenced and stripped of her power. The unfortunate thing is many of us have experienced this men or women, and we’re so desperately seeking happiness, that’s when the devils strikes. 2 Corinthians 11:14 (CSB) “And no wonder! For Satan disguises himself as an angel of light.” We’re so desperate to be happy again,that the devil convinces you to persue money no matters what it takes, drink or use drugs you’ll never have to think of that pain, you’ll be fearless again, get as much people as possible to notice you, the more people “love” you the greater you’ll be etc. The devil will be the first  to present a solution and in that moment, it will make sense to you because it will make you feel better and maybe smile for a moment but it never solves the problem.Galatians 5:19-21 (CSB) “Now the works of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, moral impurity, promiscuity, 20 idolatry, sorcery, hatreds, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambitions, dissensions, factions, 21 envy, drunkenness, carousing, and anything similar. I am warning you about these things — as I warned you before — that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.”

All of these things mentioned in Galatians are romanticized by society, they are deemed as normal and some are presented as part of self care” or “healing”. Be careful of what the world calls wisdom or self-love, God might be calling that foolishness. “Everything sounds wise to the one who doesn’t read” – Unknown

After I was sexually assaulted I never dealt with the issue but I ignored it and to pretend like it never happened, so I remained silent and instead of running to God I run into the hands of another so I could feel good, the standards that I have put for myself then downgraded because I believed this is the best I could get so I better settle for this, but I was just destroying myself, giving away my power, I believed that if man see’s me worthy enough to propose and make me his wife that means I’m worthy, it doesn’t matter if I’m truly happy with him but his willing to marry me so I’ll ignore all the red flags. I was ready to give my power away to a man forever by  becoming his wife, even when I knew God never approved the union. As an African woman walking away from an engagement is like getting a divorce, God had to literally break me down so I could walk away, even with tears in my eyes I knew I had to walk away, no matter what people would say.

To get my power back, I had to go back to the beginning. God performed a miracle in my life. Click To Tweet

After I walked away the devil did present solutions that would make me feel better, revenge, anger etc but it didn’t solve the problem. Until I sat in silence I gave myself totally to Jesus to restore me. God always answers, after I prayed for God to heal me, God brought my helpers in the form of phycologist. Originally these phycologist were contacted so myself and my ex could get couples counseling, which we were supposed to pay for. God knew what he was doing because they started counseling me for free and we we started dealing with the real problem, which was not my ex, unless I dealt with my issues I would continue same cycle with relationships, my career, my spiritual life etc. To get my power back, I had to go back to the beginning. God performed a miracle in my life. Can the church give me a, Hallelujah!

The only true solution is Christ which is not popular, no flashy lights and it’s not easy. God will never provide you with a feel good solution, Yashua gives you a everlasting solution and that means dealing with your roots, your past, pains, fears. God will take you back to the things that took your power away, tell you to look them in the eyes, fight it until you defeat and take your power back but you won’t be alone. God provides all the resources you need to fight and get your power back, it could be through counseling, deliverance, etc. the Lord uses many ways. Hebrews 12:4-11 (CSB) “In struggling against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And you have forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons: My son, do not take the Lord’s discipline lightly or lose heart when you are reproved by him, 6 for the Lord disciplines the one he loves and punishes every son he receives. 7 Endure suffering as discipline: God is dealing with you as sons. For what son is there that a father does not discipline? 8 But if you are without discipline — which all receive — then you are illegitimate children and not sons. 9 Furthermore, we had human fathers discipline us, and we respected them. Shouldn’t we submit even more to the Father of spirits and live? 10 For they disciplined us for a short time based on what seemed good to them, but he does it for our benefit, so that we can share his holiness. 11 No discipline seems enjoyable at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.”

You need to decide what you want, do you want a solution or you want to feel good. When I decided I want a solution and fully opened up to God. It was not cute at all, because he took me back, and I cried begging him to stop and take the pain away, Psalm 119:92-93 (CSB) “If your instruction had not been my delight, I would have died in my affliction. 93 I will never forget your precepts, for you have given me life through them.” He said no “if you want to get your power back, we need to go back and deal with the roots. What you want is not easy but it’s impossible”. Luke 10:19 (CSB) “Look, I have given you the authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy; nothing at all will harm you.I wanted to give up because the pain was so unbearable and I just wanted to feel good for just a moment again but because I gave my soul to Jesus, He became my strength when I was weak. Isaiah 41:10 (CSB)” Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with my righteous right hand. 15 See, I will make you into a sharp threshing board, new, with many teeth. You will thresh mountains and pulverize them and make hills into chaff.”

The devil will not stop trying to take your power away and that’s why God renews our strength everyday. Isaiah 40:31 (CSB)” but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not become weary, they will walk and not faint.” You start seeing the world differently, the things that made you feel good, you see them for what they are “distractions” from your destiny. And you understand the scripture when it say in Matthew 5:43-44 (CSB) “You have heard that it was said, Love your neighbor and hate your enemy. 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you”. You begin to understand that they are broken too and are desperately searching for help and until they get the everlasting solution as you did, they’ll keep going around in circles one moment things are good then next everything crumbles down, they’ll keep hurting others and themselves. Therefore as a child of Kingdom we pray for them to meet the everlasting solution.

Child of God we leave in a broken world, broken people and it’s our responsibility to help people get the everlasting solution. Present Christ to them and then let God be God.

 

𝗪𝗥𝗜𝗧𝗧𝗘𝗡 𝗕𝗬:Vunene Valoyi

𝗜𝗡𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗚𝗥𝗔𝗠: Theoriginalnene

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